Stuff Right Now

I don't like a lot of things. Mostly I don't like intolerance. I don't like hatered. I don't like name calling. I don't like yelling and I certainly don't like that I am capable of all these things.
At this point in my life I have recognised that I am going through a trial, I don't know what it's preparing me for, all I know is that it's happening so that I learn patience, love, but most importantly, so that I learn how to approach, or not approach if need be, a situation in which I am being harassed or abused verbally. Unfortunately this trial can also bring out the very worst in me. When this happens it helps me to think about Joseph, the son of Jacob/Israel. Joseph was brilliant. He took positive attitute to a new extreme. He was in slavery or prison from the age of seventeen to thirty, but he faced every trial with a happy heart, seeing the Lord's hand in all things. I am trying to be so much more like Joseph. I've found it's hard because most of the time I don't want to let go of the anger, I want to yell and scream and make them see they're hurting me, but I've found a method in which I can calm myself down and be more like Joseph. First I breathe, three deep breaths. Next I tell myself, "The Lord wil deal with them, it's not my place." And most of the time that works. When it doesn't I pray for forgiveness and strength and patience and love and all those other things that I need so much right now. He listens, I grow. One day I'll know why this is neccessary.

I Love Books

I'm sorry neglected blog. I still love you. I know I haven't written for two months but I have a great excuse, you'll love it. I haven't been abe to put down the book I'm reading, actually books, because I've stumbled across a little treasure trove of good literature that I simply cannot turn away from. Borders and OPSM. Borders has been my supplier of brilliant Michael Marshall books. Bad Things was the beginning of my readathon, a fresh from the publishers Marshall book. I enjoyed it, but it didnt really have the essance of all that is Marshall, and that is, making me as the reader question everything I know to be true about life. Secondly I got my happy little hands on a book called The Time Travellers Wife. I cried my eyes out. Occassionally I do adore books that make me cry (in a good way), and this was one of those occassions. This book I got from OPSM, for free. Those who know me best know I am a true cheapie and I love a freebie. Since then I've aquired another Marshall book, and all it's glory I might add. The Intruders, there must be a sequel, if there is not the author will receive polite letters (demanding another two books) constantly until he drowns in them. Now I'm up to Catch Twenty Two, which I am especially excited about because I've heard great things. I love books.