While My Nails Dry

My head is spinning. I haven't been so nervous in so long. The thing is though, it isn't regular nervousness, I wish it was regular nerves because I know how to deal with that! This is a retarted "I can't do anything about this situation except think about it, which doesn't really help except to make me more nervous" type of nervousness. I hate this! All I can do is wait and see, and it isn't even that important, but I just wanna know what's going on, so it's at the top of the list of interesting things on my mind at the moment. I hate it! I hate it! I hate it!
I wish I could just know. Everything would be better if I knew.