8 Oct 2009

I'm gonna try to explain this.

Why is it so hard to say easy things? Like "I like you," or "We should hang out more." There always seems to be "what ifs?" Or "I can't because..." Is it because we are protecting ourselves, "What ifs?" do help if it's something like "What if prison hasn't changed him and he still has murderous tendancies?" But what about "What if he says no?" Is that really a legitimate inhibition? And why are the "What ifs?" always negative. What is wrong with the way we speak to ourselves that the "What ifs?" are always negative? I don't like this fact.
I have a friend who said she wants to be about change, she was talking about changing the world, helping the poor in third world countries. Well I want to be about change too, but I want to change myself. I want to tell a boy I like him even if I'm sure he'll never ever like me back, because if I say something, it means I'm not saying nothing, which means I have a much greater chance at getting what I want. I want to face an impossible challenge and hear the words "I can!" pop into my head before I hear "I can't because..." I want to believe I can finish anything I start, without a single doubt. I want the right attitude and I know where to start.
I've made a "To Do List," it may take me my whole life to accomplish, but that's okay, because it will also shape me into an incredible person. It reads;
  1. Be tolerant of all.
  2. Don't murmer.
  3. Edify and uplift.
  4. Recognise the Lord's hand in all things.
  5. Be humble.
  6. Be teachable.

That's my solution from changing an "I can't," into an "I can." I'll let you know how it goes.

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